did to get money to get high. I guess you feel old it's hard to remember, for me forgettin
is the hardest part and i've tried, i have tried really hard. It's part of survival, you get high
you get by. If i could stop i would. But i can't. I havetried. I just can't. I know, believe me,
i know this life it helps it really helps so much : i forget all the shit around me. I remember
that place, that place that's waiting for me..and it's good it's so fucking good, like an orgasm
from every pore of your body. You're not hangry you're not scared, you're warm.
I have an old photograph, i've kept it for a long long time. I'm at the beach i must have been
like 6 years old i look pretty stupid on the picture because i'm wearing a little bikini. I remember
that day was a great cold day, bud i still wanted to wear my bathing suit. The photograp's
getting really really old. It's yellow; But it's pretty funny because even though it was a shady day
then, it look sunny now.
It's so strange how things work the things you try to hold on to, they're the first to go,
and all the things you try to throw away, they stay .